A poem I wrote tonight....

Angelic Dirge

The Angels cry in Heaven tonight
And the Demons laugh below
A mortal stands jilted on Earth
Filled with bitter sorrow.

The Angels play a saddened dirge
In some celestial key
And as the mortal stands and weeps
The Demons laugh in ecstasy.

The mortal stands before the ocean below
On a precipice far above
Crying over the love inside
Of his lost love.

She wasn't killed or taken away
No captive of some cruel king
She wasn't abducted in the night
By some blood-thirsty beast

She was guilty of only love
To a man the same as she
A love that was separated
By this churning sea.

So as he stands and looks below
The last tear falls from his eyes
And as he falls into the sea
He slowly sinks and dies.

Ray Anderson
July 8, 2009
Texas

I have been away for far too long.... but now I am back in Texas for a while. I have been living in Moscow, Russia and in Thailand with my wife for over 6 months and it was great. I only wish she would come to the United States for a bit. She is true Moscovite and loves her city and country as I love mine. I will apply for another visa and if she doesn't come here soon, I'll go back to Moscow.

Moscow is the city that never sleeps. I love it and I hate it. It is cold to me but I always seem to go in the winter months so I guess that's the reason!

We spent a wonderful 3 months in Koh Samui, Thailand on the beach and that was relaxing. It was just too damn hot! I guess I can't find a place with the weather just as I like it. Marina loved Thailand and she went from the white Russian skin to the dark brown skin. Some may she is sexier but I have always liked the whiter skin on a woman.

We didn't have a professional camera but we did take many photos. I will post them as I have time.

Thanks all to the letters I got asking how we are doing. It is greatly appreciated.

Ray Anderson

Many people ask me where I have been and I must say I have been in hibernation. Yes, I have been hiding inside myself only waiting to wake in the autumn.

The cold wind called to me in my home in Texas, USA , and I woke. My muse had been gone for far too long. I had lost all desire for anything, it is true. I had no desire for emorions. I only wanted to lie and sleep forever, never to wake...

But the voice came to me as an Angel in the night. I had to answer her call. I had to return to the living and the awake. Who is my muse, you ask?

My wife , Marina. Mother Russia. And Moscow, the city of many lights that never sleeps. I am an American and she is Russian and our governments, in some old scenario, say we should not be together for 3 months because Americans are not allowed to stay in Russia for more than 90 days... So I had to return to Texas... and my shadows in the corners of my room.

At first I was alive with the memories of her and her caresses. So soft and calm. I was an electrical pulse that searched for an outlet. So I began to do this deviantart... but soon the memories faded to sadness and depression and I slept... and slept...

Monday I go back to Moscow and my love and life. As many of you know I am a musician and my friends threw me a huge going away party and some groups and friends came to play. I want to thank Drowning Pool, Saliva , Tantric and Amy Lee (Of Evanescence) for throwing one HELL of a party ! You all rock.

So Monday I get on the plane, land in London on Tuesday then Moscow Late that night. Wednesday I'll be on stage playing in Moscow so if anyone is there and would like to get on the guest list just say so and I'll make sure you get in and get a table.

Look for more work coming soon as I am re-united with my muse and my life begins again !

Ray Anderson